Tonight we had our 5th Sunday celebration at church. The night consisted of worship and testimonies, and afterwards, some food and fellowship. I was sitting on stage listening to the testimonies of how God had worked in so many lives recently. I started thinking of all the great things God has been doing for me. 2010 was NOT my best year. To be honest, it was pretty bad. So, with the arrival of 2011, I was (and still am) expecting good things. We all know there are seasons in ones life, so I was ready for my winter to be over and for spring to be on it’s way!
My winter was particularly hard this time around. I felt cold, alone, and honestly – bare. It really was a bad time in my life. It was dark, and the only time I was relieved was when I was worshiping. I lost myself in worshiping God. I didn’t worship him for what he was doing, because really, I couldn’t feel or see him “doing” anything. I worshiped him for WHO he IS. He IS I am. He is peace. He is joy. He is provision. He is unfathomable love. He is justice. He is alpha and omega. He is all in all.He is king of kings. Most importantly, he is the covenant maker and keeper.
So, that is what I did. Because only in worshiping was my pain eased. Only in that moment did I find peace.
I began looking back, sitting up there on stage. What leaps and bounds have I made! God has brought me through and I’m thawing out. I have a God dream that he is bringing to fruition everyday. My heart is healed and my soul has peace. I was just reveling in those facts when I heard him. He said I had to have my winter. I had to have time to dig into myself. To see what I was made of. To trust him. Just like the trees get rid of the leaves that once made them beautiful and useful, I had to shed some things I believed made me beautiful and useful. Just like animals hibernate so that they are protected from harshness of the outside, I had to bury myself in him to protect ME from the harshness of the outside.
I am truly glad my winter is almost over. Not that spring doesn’t come with it’s own lessons – sowing, waiting for the rain, watching for the frost, pushing through the soil, beginning to grow . . . But, I know I will make it through. Summer will be on it’s way and soon the fall and harvest time, and, undoubtedly, winter again.
This time, however, I think I will have a different prospective on it all. I will find the beauty in it all. Because just like some think the barren trees are ugly, I know they are letting their maker refresh them and protect them. Just like some think the snow is a pain, I know it is Gods way of showing that EVERY season has something of beauty in it!
A Time for Everything
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
9 What do workers gain from their toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on the human race. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet[a] no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. 13 That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that people will fear him.